What are you after?

For each person that approaches me,that meets me, and knows me.For every kind word and thoughtful gesture too.The qusetion jumps into my mind.Human nature so intrinsically based to my core being that I must question the bad and the good.Unfortunately, the good arouses more curiousity and skeptisim than the malicious. Suspiscions that covert intentions fuel friendly smiles plague me.I'm bothered to no end by my assessment of humanity. Daily my Pessimism grows as humanity personifies.I watch the world with hooded eyes seeking all that I loathe. Hearing all that's been said but replaying those words in my head to read across,between, and through the lines.